If you had told me 12 years ago when I finished school where I would be today - I wouldn't of believed you. I wouldn't of believed you 5 years ago, or even 2.
It really blows me away to look back and compare how life actually turns out verse what you expected. I thought I'd be married and have lots of babies young just like my Mum had. But no, I guess that wasn't the plan for me. Yes I was married young - at 22. I felt so old back then but in hindsight I was so young and naive. Now I'm closing in on 29... eeep!
Long story short I was married at 22 and left my marriage 4 years later. I won't go into the details but it was seriously the biggest growing experience of my life. I was still naive and pretty innocent but somehow had grown in incredible independence and strength to the point that I was able to walk away from something extremely toxic. In the two years I've also found myself in a few toxic work environments which I've also had to walk away from. Now I'm at a great company with a great boss who appreciates my work.
It's safe to say I'm in a much better place today. It took 2 years for me to finally escape all the baggage of my marriage - one of the biggest was the debt I was left to pay off. My parents have helped me heaps, otherwise it would of taken me 10 years to get away from that debt. The emotional and psychological toll has been massive and I don't think it's something anyone is meant to easily get over. It shapes who we become as people.
I met a lovely guy who treats me well and I can finally say my life isn't in constant turmoil and daily anguish. I still get stressed out - but that's my own doing having to always take on more then I can handle. At the moment I am working full-time, planning a wedding and getting married in 4 weeks, moved houses a month ago and, at uni part-time and also starting my own business. It's super busy but it's good and it's only going to get better. :)
I am not sure if any of my old blog friends are still around but we will see :) A few I've happily remain connected with via facebook. It's so great and I love that I've maintained such long term friendships with people all over the world.
